Monday, March 12, 2007

Am I Crazy?

I hate this time change. It takes me about a week to adjust to it. And I really don't know why. Being a morning person, you would think that I wouldn't mind getting up an hour earlier. But it just throws off my whole system. I feel behind all the time.

If you are wondering why I haven't really posted anything about my "healthy goals" lately, it is not because I'm not keeping up with them. It is because Meredith, Crystal and I have set up a blog specifically to keep up with our goals and our progress. Just to give a quick update on here, I have had a really hard time walking at night after work. I finally made the decision last week to start getting up early to walk. This morning was the first day and I did a 15-minute walking-in-place video. Hopefully I will be able to keep this up this week.

I had a meltdown Saturday night about carrot cake. You see, Mitch and I had been at my parents' house celebrating my birthday (it was the first weekend both of us could do it.) My mom made my favorite type of cake - carrot cake with cream cheese frosting. Over the course of a day and a half, I ate 3 pieces. My mom gave us the leftovers to take back with us Saturday night. On the drive home, I started dwelling over the rest of that cake that was lying in my back seat. It was taunting me. I wanted that cake all to myself. I didn't want to share with co-workers or neighbors. I wanted to get a fork and eat it all myself. But the other side of me knew that was wrong. So, I spent a good 15 minutes going back and forth in my mind about what to do with that cake. Finally, because of this internal struggle, I started to cry. Mitch listened to me complain about the cake and my predicament. By the time we got home, (which is an hour drive,) I finally made the decision to throw it away. So, being the wonderful husband that he is, Mitch "took care of" the cake as soon as we got home. I didn't even have to look at it again.
I want to know 2 things:

Am I crazy for struggling this much over food?

What would a normal, healthy person have done in my situation? Would they have refused the leftovers? Would they have requested not to have carrot cake as birthday cake since it is such a temptation?

3 comments:

Unknown said...

I always hate this time of year. I feel like I am being robbed of an hour! And I have trouble forcing myself to go to bed an hour early.

I don't think you are crazy. Everyone has their weaknesses. And I think you should be able to have what you like at least once a year. I think we did the right thing by eating a little and throwing away the leftovers.

Stephanie said...

hey tonya, will you send me your email address?

Margaret said...

No, you are not crazy. Throwing it away is a big step, a good step. I have a don't waste food mantra in my head. I will eat something I don't even want just so I don't have to throw it away.