Friday, October 31, 2008

A Different Tune

This year has flown by! I cannot believe Thanksgiving is next week. I have had a blast this year. It has been an emotional roller coaster ride, but I wouldn't have traded it for the world. I have a beautiful baby girl to show for my troubles :)

I walked on the treadmill tonight. I walked a mile in 25 minutes. That isn't very fast, but I am proud that I did it. I have finally come to the conclusion that I am going to have to exercise after Madelyn goes to bed. I have tried all year to start an exercise program during the day while Madelyn is taking a nap. I am not a night person, so getting the energy up to walk at night is huge for me.


I have learned a lot about dieting this past year. Through prayer and Bible study, I have discovered that my approach to weight loss in the past has been for one reason - vanity. I have disguised this from myself, but the Lord has a way of removing the layers of lies to reveal the truth. Up until now, my weight loss motivation has been to feel prettier or sexier or more accepted in society.

So today I walk to a different beat. I am whistling a different tune. It is simply that I want to be healthy. I want to take care of my body because God gave it to me. That's it. I am not exercising because I want to fit into that bikini or because I want to turn heads when I walk down the street. If I stay at my current size 20, so be it. And yes, I just admitted to the world my dress size.