Thursday, January 25, 2007

Chocolate Battle

Yesterday at lunch, I bought a big, Dove dark chocolate bar. The package says that 1/3 of the bar is one serving. Now, I can eat one of those bars in one sitting without blinking. But I am trying to teach myself the art of "moderation." So, I made a deal with myself. If I can make this chocolate bar (that is currently in my desk drawer) last 3 days, with only eating one serving each day, then this weekend I will buy this pullover I have my eye on. So far, so good. I only had 1/3 of it yesterday. Now I just need to make it through today.

This is why I don't like diets. Diets don't teach you anything. Sure, I can lay off the carbs or fat ( or whatever the diet says is bad) for a few weeks and lose weight. Anyone can do that. But then, after a few weeks when my motivation is shot and I "cheat," I go right back to my old eating habits. I was on the South Beach Diet last year. I had been doing so well. I hadn't cheated once! And then, about 3 or 4 weeks into it, I had a bad day and ate a cheeseburger and fries from Wendy's. I sat in my car and cried while I ate it. Dieting is not the answer. All I feel like when I'm on a diet is that I'm depriving myself. I want to create a healthy lifestyle - not just a diet. To me, a diet is like a "get rich, quick" scheme. And a healthy lifestyle is like a long-term investment plan.

I wish I was one of those people that doesn't struggle with their eating habits. Yes, they have a chocolate bar every once in a blue moon, or eat a little more than usual over the holidays, but on a daily basis, they eat well. They don't have to focus on cutting out carbs or fat or sugar. They just eat well and don't over-do it. If they aren't hungry and someone offers them some cake, they say, "No, thank you." And they don't look back. Food is a HUGE part of my life. I think about it all the time. Do you think I forgot about that chocolate bar yesterday after I had my serving? No way. In fact, I thought about it this morning in the shower. I'm thinking about it right now. Getting healthy is so hard for me and is going to take a long time. Each day is a battle.

3 comments:

Margaret said...

Before I get out of bed in the mornings I list three things that I am looking forward to that day. Many days two of those things are food.

Stephanie said...

You're right about diets v. lifestyles. I know you've heard this story, but that's how I lost weight. I decided that if I was going to weigh 200 lbs, I was going to be the healthiest 200 lb woman you'd ever seen. I never bought a scale. I ate fruits and vegetables and walked and drank water - Finding some sort of exercise that you LIKE and is feasible for your life really helps, too. I was slow and couldn't go far in the beginning, but after a few weeks I realized that I LIKED walking. It calmed me down, helped me clear my head. Anyway, that's how I did it. I think you're taking the right approach.

Crystal Watford said...

How did you do? Thank you for letting us into your mind and struggles. I'm learning that I've got to completely change my way of thinking.